A body betrayed

Don’t you dare come to me now

Don't you dare say that I am betraying you

After the decades of torture I endured for you

You poured poison into my blood

You stifled and suffocated my tears

You tricked me so many times

You told me it was nourishment, but it was artificial

You deceived me with filtered air

You told me it was OK, they said it was OK, but it caused me harm

You denied me life

You forced smoke into my throat and lungs

You justified each cigarette or hit of a blunt

You pushed me beyond my limits, every single day

You made me quiver until everything within me expelled

You caused my muscles to tear, my veins to pop, my organs to shrivel

You defended it with a false sense of glorification

You further abused me with your words, yelling at me to keep going

when you knew I could not

You subjected me to terror and adrenaline and denied me liberty

You pushed metal into my flesh

You told me it was OK, they said you deserved it, but it caused me harm

You told me it would make me stronger

You denied me what I needed and continued to fuel me with venom

How dare you sit there, now unable to move, and yet still entitled

How dare you sit there with fear, sorrow, and remorse

You never listened

I am failing, though

but I did not betray you

You betrayed me